It’s been 6 and half months since Annabelle was born and it’s safe to say things are now considerably easier. Whilst going through these 6 months I have thought how easy Annabelle is, but the truth is it’s still pretty hard work and it’s not until you get to these easier times that you realize this. That, and when a close friend has a baby; you start to reminisce!
A good friend of ours just had their first baby, she’s a perfect little girl and her parents are of course over joyed. It has got me thinking back to when Annabelle was that small. The feelings of such overwhelming love that you almost feel sad. The not sleeping and not because that baby is crying or feeding but because you want to watch her. Or because you are too scared something might happen to her if you close your eyes. I remember thinking someone would soon come to ‘take her back’.
Annabelle at hours old
It’s also nice to reminisce about the slightly more undignified parts of having a baby (in my case, it being a caesarean, the bed bath and the catheter etc…) and remembering how little you care because now you have bigger things to worry about. I remember thinking how amazing my body is, not because it was toned and slim (ha, far from it), but because it had cooked up this perfect creature and now it was still providing it with warmth and nutrition.
Those early days can be exhausting, trying to get used to the onslaught of emotions and physical changes to your body is hard work. I remember a friend asking me, only days after having Annabelle, “you must feel so light now”, I replied with “quite the opposite, I feel heavy and cumbersome”. My body trying to keep up with everything was quite overwhelming.
It’s fun to think back to the ‘dark days’, as another friend refers to it. I found the first 6 weeks comparably easy as I was running on adrenaline. Weeks 6 to 8 were utter hell. Adrenaline had dwindled and Annabelle was starting to become more alert and therefore sleeping less. Bad combination. Weeks 8-16 were a mixture of good days and bad and then week 18 or so, Annabelle started to sleep through the night. That really was a turning point! Now Annabelle is eating three solid meals a day and taking far less milk from me. This means I can have whole mornings to myself and leave Annabelle with friends or sitters… Again, I feel like it is a real turning point. The next stage will be crawling and toddling and that’s going to mean a lot of up and down and following her around!!
There’s no denying that having a baby really does change your life. Every thing you do, you do because you want the best for your child or because you want your child to respect you and love you as much as you love them. As I write, news has come in about another close friend who has just delivered a beautiful baby boy. I feel very emotional thinking about my new parent friends as I know what they must be feeling and I know how wonderful it is! Congratulations!!
The New Indian Princess